I was a late bloomer, so I was shorter than my peers. Jung Inhyuk, on the other hand, was much taller than me. I cautiously stepped closer and gestured. Then Jung Inhyuk smiled and bent down to match my eye level. I glanced around, cupped my hands beside his ear, and whispered quietly, “hyung.”

My ears burned red.

Suddenly Jung Inhyuk turned his head and gave my cheek a short kiss. I stared blankly at his lips lifting away with a ticklish sound.

– Good job.

Jung Inhyuk tapped my cheek and personally helped me put on the sweater. Wrapped in the fluffy white knit, I thought desperately of my mother. I had been staring at this sweater endlessly because I had thought of her. But it wasn’t as warm as I had expected. As my thoughts of her deepened, tears gathered in my eyes.

-Why are you crying?

-…I miss my mom, I, I really, really miss her.

-Come here. Hyung will hug you.

Jung Inhyuk spread his arms, and I threw myself into his embrace. It wasn’t warm and soft like my mother’s arms, but there was a strange sense of stability there. I clutched his collar and cried in silence.

At the feeling of something lightly tapping my cheek, I shifted. In an instant, I reached out to catch Jung Inhyuk as he shoved me away and moved off. But someone grabbed my hand and pulled it downward. Frowning, I felt the hard shape at my fingertips.

“You still have time to think about other things? How leisurely.”

I was kneeling between Jung Inhyuk’s legs as he sat on the bed, my mouth wrapped around his cock. Irritated, he thrust his hips up. The shaft invaded deep into my throat and brushed against my uvula.

Instinctively, nausea surged and I tried to pull my head back, but Jung Inhyuk grabbed the back of my head and held me in place. I opened my mouth wide and gagged. Blood rushed to my face, and my ears felt hot. I quickly slapped at his thigh, but he roughly pressed my head down.

“Ugh! Ugh!”

After a long while, Jung Inhyuk finally removed the hand pinning my head down, and I jerked my head back to gasp for breath. A mucous-like fluid dripped down his cock and the corners of my mouth. My vision turned black, then white, then purple again before suddenly flashing bright.

“Haa, haa.”

But strangely, my palm had become wet. Only then did I realize I had been stroking his cock with my mouth and gripping it myself, shaking it. My legs were a mess. Semen had soaked the floor and pooled into a small puddle.

But no matter how much I touched the front, my sexual desire wasn’t going away. My back was itching like I’d go mad. I touched the folds with my finger, then jerked my hand away in shock.

“Lee Shinjae, come closer.”

Jung Inhyuk had let his pheromones loose without controlling them, and I was dizzy. I knelt and crawled toward him, opening my mouth again. My body and mind felt completely split apart. Tears kept falling endlessly. And yet I obediently kept stroking his cock and trying to take it deep into my mouth. It was definitely me, and yet it didn’t feel like me.

Jung Inhyuk stroked my ear and cheek, rubbing the head of his cock against the inside of my cheek. I kept being swallowed by pleasure, then suddenly regaining my senses and pushing him away, over and over. Actions taken in this confused state gnawed at my mind like ants.

I pressed a hand to his abdomen and pushed him down, then licked him with my tongue. The strange taste and color clinging to the tip of my tongue seeped into my body. I climbed onto Jung Inhyuk, pressed our bodies fully together, and rubbed my cock against his stomach. My body was so hot I couldn’t control it. This was not reason, but instinctive lust.

“This is interesting.”

“…H-hng, please, do something to me.”

“Then say, please fuck me nicely.”

I shook my head, clinging to the last shred of pride I had left. Jung Inhyuk let out a short laugh, grabbed my ass, and spread it apart. I could feel the hole opening and closing with stark clarity. Shame and embarrassment turned my face so red it felt like it might burst.

“Hhngh, let go! Let go!”

Even as I gasped for breath, I struggled to escape Jung Inhyuk’s hold. He slapped my ass hard with his palm and barked sharply,

“Quit acting up and stay still.”

“Let go, ugh, I said let go!!”

“Is this because you’re a late bloomer? Even in heat, you still have some sense left.”

Jung Inhyuk smiled faintly, grabbed the back of my head with one hand, and pinched my nose shut with the other. Then he let his traits loose without controlling them. I shook my head and resisted, but the only open airway was my mouth, so I had no choice but to exhale and swallow until the lining inside my mouth dried out.

For reasons I couldn’t understand, the roof of my mouth burned. His pheromones wound through every corner of my body as if constricting me. Satisfied, he let go. The hand that had barely been holding my body up slipped away, and I collapsed weakly.

“Do you feel like asking me to fuck you now?”

“Je, hng, Jung Inhyuk!”

Jung Inhyuk paused as he stroked down my spine. Then he suddenly gripped my lower back hard and thrust his hips up. His head slipped into and out of my already loosened hole. I couldn’t breathe and trembled all over.

This wasn’t the pleasure I had known before. What had once only felt lukewarm, like watered-down liquor, was now so electrifying it made my eyes roll back.

“Your hole’s gone limp and relaxed, so it opens right up no matter how much I drill it.”

“Hng, Executive Director.”

Jung Inhyuk spread my ass and slowly pushed his cock inside. I could feel his thick, veined length scraping against my inner walls as it entered. My body jolted like a fish hooked on a spear. I clawed at his chest with my nails. My cock, trapped and rubbing violently between our bodies, finally shot out semen.

Even as my body lost strength and went limp after squeezing out semen several times, Jung Inhyuk pulled his cock out with absurd slowness. Then, mercilessly, he slammed back in. Because of that, I had no chance to feel relief before the heat surged again.

“Ah, aaah! Hng, please!”

“Don’t act stupid and accept it. You’re not leaving here anyway.”

Jung Inhyuk tightened the hand around my waist and rolled me onto my side. With my back on the bed, he spread my legs wide and shoved himself in deep. The sound of skin sticking wetly together was loud beneath all the fluid. Pleasure and disgust tangled together, turning my head into a complete mess. My desire to push him away silently intertwined with my desire for him to thrust deeper.

Jung Inhyuk took both my hands in his and pulled them down. His hot cock entered and left as though it were digging through me. The moment he thrust deeply instead of shallowly, my vision went completely black. I couldn’t make a sound, only stiffened my waist and squeezed my eyes shut. My heart was pounding wildly.

Over the countless times we’d lain together, he had always given me sex mixed more with pain than pleasure. Since I was a beta, I couldn’t keep up with an alpha’s stamina and libido, and there were often times I lost consciousness during sex because I couldn’t bear the pain. And the aftereffects lasted a long time too. To me, sex had always been painful, exhausting, and fucking miserable.

“Mmph, hng, wait, wait!”

Jung Inhyuk thrust in and out while grinding against the same spot. I inhaled so sharply my lower abdomen caved inward and curled up. I couldn’t endure the numbing pleasure. My body shook violently.

Under the relentless pounding, I was nearly half out of my mind, crying out. Jung Inhyuk was like black ink dropped into clear water. Slowly spreading, he tried to dye me completely black.

I clung to him, screaming in helpless flood after flood of pleasure. Reason and pride were gone now. I just wanted out of this relentless heat. He was the solid rope, the only person who could pull me out of this pain. But the tears still wouldn’t stop.

“Executive Director, hng, Executive Director!”

I wrapped my arms around Jung Inhyuk’s neck and hugged him. With my lips against his shoulder, I swayed with every movement he made. It felt like my whole body was melting and flowing somewhere. My abdomen throbbed, and the urge to cum kept coming over me. Jung Inhyuk endured climax several times while tearing through my insides. The long, relentless act continued until the inside of me went numb, as if I’d been beaten.

Suddenly he grabbed my hand, pulled my upper body upright, and wrapped his arms tightly around my head and waist. Even his crushing grip was a catalyst that heated my body. His hips moved faster, and his cock entered and left me wildly.

“Ah…! Hng, slo, slower. Hng, Execu, ugh!”

Jung Inhyuk pulled me downward and drove his hips in deeply. With a heavy thump, he grabbed my head and pressed me down. He let out a groan that sounded like it scratched his vocal cords and stiffened. I couldn’t feel anything, but I knew instinctively that he was climaxing. And before I could even think it was over,

“Agh!”

Jung Inhyuk’s cock, buried in my hole, began to swell. I screamed as the inner walls were crushed and the hole felt like it was about to tear apart. This was knotting, something only an alpha could do to an omega. It was just as terrifying as it was painful.

Trembling in fear, I clawed and tore at him with my nails. Even when flesh came away and stuck to my nails, Jung Inhyuk locked me tightly in place and kept kissing my cheeks and shoulders over and over.

In eight years of sleeping together, I had never once felt pain like this. Since alphas couldn’t knot betas, Jung Inhyuk had never even attempted to knot me before. So the only place I’d ever seen knotting was in the materials Kang Jigyu had given me. I hadn’t expected it to be this bad.

“It’s t-tearing, ugh, it’s ruined.”

“Shh, if you move, it’ll really tear.”

He whispered to me in that same gentle voice he used to soothe me, then tilted my head slightly and kissed me. He pushed his tongue between my parted lips and caressed my body with tender hands. Every time he rubbed along my inner walls, a shrill cry slipped out of me.

“Hah, you don’t know how long I’ve waited for this moment.”

“It hurts, hng, it hurts! Ugh.”

I couldn’t hear Jung Inhyuk properly. Fear and pain had taken over my body and swallowed me whole. I rubbed my hands together and begged to be saved. I cried, pleaded, screamed, cursed… and by the time my voice had gone hoarse and exhausted to the point that no sound would come out, the cock blocking the hole tightly finally seemed to shrink, and I lost consciousness.